A New Lens on Life: Choosing Growth Over Healing

What does it feel like to be on a focused path of raising and expanding your consciousness?

It’s a big question. And the answer is—like most things on this path—not linear.

There’s a significant shift that happens when you stop approaching life through the lens of "I need to heal" and instead start looking through the lens of "I want to grow." That subtle but powerful change reframes every single experience you have. Suddenly, the question isn’t "Why is this happening to me?"—it’s "What is this showing me? How is this helping me evolve?"

For me, this shift started with Pellowah.

A New Way of Experiencing Life

Pellowah was my first real taste of working not just with energy, but with pure source light. It was first channeled by Kachina Ma’an in 2003, which means it’s now been around for over two decades. While the energy itself hasn’t changed—it’s always been pure source light—the way it integrates into people has evolved dramatically. This is because our collective density has lessened. The reality we live in is no longer as heavy as it once was, and our bodies are more capable of receiving light.

In the earlier days of Pellowah, everything came through in slow, small "drips." The body couldn’t absorb or integrate much of this powerful light, and so there were a lot of rules around how to prepare and what not to do afterward. No other modalities. No spiritual work. Total rest. Strict boundaries to ensure the energy had space to integrate.

When I trained in Pellowah in 2021, I came in right at the moment where a lot of those rules had been lifted. The manual had been updated, the protocol simplified. It was still the same practice, still the same beautiful energy—but now the body could handle more and the shifts were more profound. I was so grateful to be introduced to the work at that time because it made the whole process more accessible, more joyful.

Please note: I trained in Pellowah in 2021, and while this was my personal experience, I am not entirely sure when all of these changes occurred. My understanding—based on what I’ve learned from Kachina Ma'an (founder and channel of Pellowah and Umana) and other colleagues—is that the manual had recently undergone a significant simplification and many teachers were retraining at that time. Whether this marked a definitive shift or was part of a more gradual evolution over several years, I can’t say with certainty. I share this as someone on the path, not as an expert on its full history and exact timeline.

That first step with Pellowah opened a doorway. But it was Umana that launched me through it.

From Healing to Evolution

Both Pellowah and Umana are about expansion. The difference is in the pace, the depth, and the intensity. Umana is a very advanced spiritual technology. It’s not something to offer to just anyone, at any time. In fact, if someone is emotionally dysregulated or going through a particularly challenging time, I wouldn’t recommend a full 60-minute session. A shorter session or beginning with Pellowah is a much better pathway to gently stabilise the system.

Pellowah supports from the inside out. It strengthens you, uplifts you, and aligns your meridians so your energy starts to flow freely. People walk in feeling overwhelmed and walk out feeling like they can breathe again. Umana, on the other hand, meets you exactly where you are—and extends you to the next level. It’s not healing; it’s transformation. And it’s permanent. You don’t slide backwards. You don’t have to keep coming back just to maintain the effect. With both modalities, once you shift, you stay there. You’ve climbed a rung of the ladder. You don’t fall back down.

Once you’ve shifted energetically or expanded in consciousness, that shift holds. You don’t lose the growth you’ve integrated, unless you consciously choose to regress (which is rare). Unlike temporary relief or surface-level change, this kind of work moves you forward into a new level of being—and that level becomes your new baseline.

This is what made me fall in love with both of them. They continue working with you long after the session ends. Days, weeks later, the energy is still with you—reshaping you, revealing things to you, shifting your perspective.

Joy, Community, and Sacred Work

One of the biggest and most beautiful shifts I’ve experienced over the past 12 months is the deep joy of finding community. For the first time in a long time, I’ve found myself forming genuine connections with other like-minded people who are just as passionate about growth, consciousness expansion, and advanced energy medicine as I am. Through both Pellowah and Umana, I’ve connected with groups of practitioners, teachers and friends where we not only catch up socially but also support each other with energy swaps—sometimes in the same modality, sometimes in different ones. We do internal work, earth work, we hold space for each other, we reflect, grow, expand and we learn together. I have several different groups like this now, and each connection has been incredibly nourishing. It’s something quite new for me, and it’s all unfolded since I really dedicated myself to this path of light and evolution.

But it hasn’t always been easy.

At the beginning, I only wanted to be around people who "got it." I felt so connected to the light, so different from the world I had lived in before, that I didn’t want to deal with everyday conversations. It felt wasteful. I avoided a lot of everyday life.

That’s changed.

I had to learn how to move between the sacred and the human. To show up for my family, for daily responsibilities, for the reality we live in—and still hold my light. That took time. At one point, trying to stay in that elevated state all the time was causing me burnout, health issues, and strain in my relationships. I’ve learned that we’re not yet built to hold that level of light 24/7. You have to oscillate. One foot in the sacred, one in the physical world. And you lean in either direction depending on what’s needed.

That’s how integration happens. You bring more of your divine into your human, and over time, your capacity increases. But it has to be done steadily, carefully, and with dedication. Otherwise, the risk of mental health impacts and overwhelm becomes very real—especially for practitioners.

Growth Isn't Linear—But It Is Lasting

Even after moments of deep calm and feeling completely untouchable, life will still bring challenges. That’s what happened to me. Like many others last year, I got absolutely pummeled. And I realised there were still deeper layers in me that needed to come up. The higher you go, the more your deepest, most buried wounds will rise to the surface.

Does this work make you unaffected? No. But it makes you resilient. You recover faster. You communicate better. You problem-solve with clarity. And you become better at seeing growth opportunities as they arise. Even the hard stuff becomes something you can work with.

And that’s what it means to live this way. To be devoted to expansion. It’s not about escaping life—it’s about participating in it with a different lens. A lens of growth, of curiosity, of alignment with a higher path.

It’s not for the faint-hearted, but it is beautiful.

The Path of Growth Through Training

Having sessions alone is powerful—absolutely. You can experience incredible transformation without ever going further. Everyone’s journey is different, and there is no requirement to move into deeper levels of a modality. But for me, I felt an undeniable pull to go further.

The exponential growth I’ve experienced has come from immersing myself more deeply. That meant moving through the levels of Pellowah and Umana—at my own pace. You don’t need to complete every level, and you certainly don’t need to rush. But when you feel called, that next step can unlock extraordinary transformation.

I personally took my time, especially with Umana. I practised as a practitioner for nearly 12 months before stepping into the teacher level. That space gave me the opportunity to integrate what I was learning, to truly experience and explore the richness of that level. Umana in particular is so expansive that giving yourself time to unfold each layer is not only helpful, it’s wise. There is so much available at each stage, and if you try to catapult too quickly, you may find yourself needing to process too much too soon. That’s not always the case—but I believe strong, steady growth builds the most powerful foundation.

It’s not about rushing to the top. For me personally, yes—I am absolutely here to go as high as I can. But I’ve also learned that the beauty is in the journey. There’s so much depth, joy, and discovery to be found along the way. And the more you lean into that, the more meaningful your expansion becomes. You discover so much about what you're capable of, who you're here to support, and what it means to truly master your crafts—why would you ever want to rush those incredible chapters?

Upcoming Practitioner Workshops

What you’ll also notice is that certain levels of a workshop—or even a particular modality—will reach out to you when the time is right. Your soul, your team in spirit, will guide you toward the next step when you're ready for it. You’ll feel an unmistakable pull. Sometimes information, teachers, or events will be placed in front of you to grab your attention—not always because it’s time to act, but to let you know it’s part of your path.

I’ve had that happen myself. About a year and a half ago, I felt drawn to a particular training. I was absolutely ready and excited to attend—but I got sick right before it started and couldn’t go. I felt gutted. I couldn’t understand why the universe would block something I felt so sure about. It didn’t seem like the opportunity would come around again.

What I didn’t know then was that one of the modalities—both actually, but one in particular—would become pivotal in helping me release deeply stubborn patterns and long-standing challenges. It was instrumental in shifting me into a more peaceful, aligned state. I’d even had clients asking for this modality, and I had tried to request the teacher offer it again—but nothing. Silence. Now, it’s finally being offered again, and I’ll be doing the training at the end of this year—two years after I first attempted to learn it.

I no longer question the timing. Sometimes you’re not "not ready"—you just need to do something else first. Trust your path. Trust your timing. If this work is calling you, listen. These may be the next steps, or they may simply be here to plant a seed.

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If you’re ready to step into this path—or deepen it—here are my upcoming dates: